It's weird to read back on my own posts, but it's great it's here. It's a reminder that life isn't always as straight forward as you may think.
Over the past 12 months, I've stayed single, I haven't been promoted at work, and I'm still in as much trouble as I was 12 months ago. I guess a very different me to 2 years ago, where I had a nice, loving girlfriend and where I was super ambitious about work and progressing. It's so hard to find the motivation when everything else seems to be going against you. Over the past 12 months I've written down plans to stop, how I'll get myself out of it, what I'll do for it to be different this time - but none of them have worked. I've just got off a site where I stayed up to 12:30am as my paycheck comes in at that time for the month, just so I can use the money before all the credit card companies and everyone else starts trying to collect my money. I haven't paid my parents the monthly loan amount back for the money the leant me for my house, I missed my mortgage payment, and I missed a whole load of card payments (again!) and I'm over all of my credit limits. 10 missed calls a day from various credit card / mortgage companies and various letters with demands coming through the door... But you know what, I think we've all been in this place. It's tough, it's easy to be down, easy to be disheartened. But if we can come back from this, what a strength of character that would be. That would be truly special and would say a lot about us - and the almightly struggle that it will be - will feel ever sweeter when we get there. I'm another year on, I'm not gamble free, I'm in more trouble than ever. But tomorrow is day 0. Christmas Eve. I need to take it one step at a time and not focus on the long run - that'll come - by day-by-day building blocks are essential. I'm reading a new book around changing habits - how our brain works, what habits it picks up, and how we can start to overwrite those old, learned habits and replace them with new ones. I'll share a few stories here in due course (when I'm not up at 4am because I've been gambling again all night...). Out of interest, if you're still reading this blog or any of this resonates with you, please do leave me a comment or drop me an e-mail. It's been a while since I've updated this - I'd like to get back to it - and share some of our journies and challenges together.
Joe
23/12/2016 09:40:07 am
I want to give you some hard truths. The money is gone. It is not coming back as you know. You also keep relapsing and things are getting worse.
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Joe Joe Dancer
23/12/2016 12:27:05 pm
You don't need this blog man if you're not going to keep up with it. Just write on the gambling therapy site. You seem like a cool guy but like someone that has it his way or it's the highway. Having this blog might seem good but I think it also isn't the best thing for you OR ME unless you continue to write on it and stay gamble free. I'm going back to the other site where I can read stories of people that post daily and give examples/strategies of how they've quit and are honestly trying to beat a horrible disease, habit, and addiction. Question, can you please donate to me as I want to start my blog and will follow through on it? I would appreciate that. Thanks man!
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AGJ
23/12/2016 02:39:14 pm
Hi Joe,
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Joe
23/12/2016 07:23:07 pm
It's not just a case of going to a meeting you need to follow the progamme and do what is suggested. You have already said you have tried lots of things but none have worked so far.
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