Just a quick blog entry from me. It’s been a week since me last entry, where I talked about being paid for the first time.
This seems, on the face of it, a good thing. I mean I got paid right?! But for me, it seems to bring pain more than anything else. The reason I say this is because in the week after payday, I need to pay some of my bills. Or at least those that I can, and the minimum balances on my credit cards that I can pay. To do this, I need to log in to my accounts, see what the minimum balance is, at it reminds me just how much debt I’m in. Just how much I have on all of my credit cards, and how much I owe those closest to me. During the month, I don’t need to look at these balances. I roughly know how much I have to spend for the month on a card (i.e. the minimum payment I paid off before the interest hits!). And in a way this is a distraction, and a welcome one, from all the trouble and all of the debt I find myself in. So, when I need to think about my debt again, it’s hard. It brings back lots of raw emotions and makes me realise all the mistakes I’ve made. But part of me also wants a short term answer to these problems, because even when I pay off the minimum amounts, it feels like I’m never going to get out of this debt. Not this way. Maybe one big gambling win could make me some money back, reduce my interest on a card so I can pay off more capital… And I got the Women’s World Cup results right. I’ve got the majority of tennis matches at Wimbledon right. Including the ‘shocks’ – the long odds matches I’ve got right. Sure I’ve got a few wrong, but we tend to forget these and focus on the ones we got right! I need to remember there is no short-term fix to my long term problem, and that gambling isn’t the answer. I’ve tried the gambling approach plenty of times and end up in the same place. It won’t be different this time – and I know that, even if it’s hard to accept and the optimist in me is trying to break free from the shackles.
junebug1981
24/7/2015 06:23:34 am
How are you doing? It's been a few weeks, I hope you have avoided the danger ahead.
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AGamblersJourney
12/11/2015 12:52:01 am
I'll be writing some more blog posts this week
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Nigel
14/9/2015 06:16:00 pm
Looks like you swiftly gave up wit this idea.........just like the rest of all us gamblers ...just couldn't keep away rom it
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Jax
20/10/2015 03:32:27 pm
Well mate how's things? I've been in contact through email with you months ago. It would seem from the lack of posts you went back to gambling unfortunately. I have too and stopped as recently as yesterday. I have no words to describe the shame and disappointment I feel in myself for letting this affliction control my life. If you get onto reading this someday remember it's never too late to change our ways. We can't change the past but we can shape our future!
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Nigel
10/11/2015 09:30:38 am
A little like Jax above I emailed you and was a guy in a very similar circumstance to you in many ways. I regularly check in to this page in the hope we will see a positive outcome and that you havent gone back to the dark side.....I am now in "remission" 90 days no sports betting or other gambling. Hope to hear from you soon - good or bad!
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